hola people ;)

p/s : todays post is all about me being emo + frustration

God its been so long since I've post something here. Blame it all too current semester! Short semester always a mess to everyone.
Well yea lots of things happened in this 7 weeks.
Semester starts with Deepavali Fever, this year Diwali not much fun tho. Felt like it was normal day.
Than was busy with studies. Oh yea and came to one point that I got terminated from UTAR cause I paid the Student bill 2weeks later than the due date. Went and met the Dean and ask him to verify the letters and bla bla shits than Paid RM100 for the reinstatement fees and additional RM20 for the 2weeks extra. FML. Than came to Registering next semester's subjects, out of 21cdt hours I only manage to register for 10cdt hours but than I manage to go and Speak to my adviser and most probably i'll be taking her subject too next sem. *excited*
Than yea I had exam attack this week. 3 freaking midterms in one week continuously together with presentations. I really struggled on managing my time between sleeping, studying and preparing for the presentations. Had 2 oncology mid terms and Toxicology midterm was yesterday. Bout toxico midterm, men I really regret not going to toilet before the exam!! Paper started at 2.35pm and I was all right answering the paper, when suddenly my bladder decided to betray me. I could not hold my pee for so long so i decided to go to toilet and since it was exam time so I have to ask permission from the lecturers. guess what the lecturer told me when I told her that I urgently need to use the washroom? She said nope you are not allowed to go to washroom now, You got to finish answering all your questions,hand in the paper than you may go.! Like as though I don't know that I could do that. I was shocked and I repeatedly telling her again Miss, I really cant hold it anymore I need to use the washroom and she said NO again! it was 3pm and another 35minutes to go for the exam to end! Seriously I really tried my best on holding my pee but I couldn't. Finally I decided to go, I left about 3questions carrying about 10-11marks [ I'm still upset bout it]. Seriously this is cruel!! ;( hate utar for this ! All things that I mentioned here is only 1/4 the things that happened past this 7 weeks.
Lots of things happened actually, I really wanna tell somebody,like really want to cry out loud but I guess I'd rather keep it to myself .

Something that I do always..

> So, yeah so now officially study break started. I got to do my best for my oncology and toxicology exam

-all the best to myself and my friends for their finals exams-

-Kausy-

Something from Tumblr

Something Random..

Read this in my Tumblr couple of minutes ago and I thought of sharing it to everyone! :) 

Have fun reading and some might have read this number of times but hey,no harm reading it again and applying it right ^^

THINGS A GIRL WISHES HER BOYFRIEND KNEW:

• I want you to hug me from behind, unexpectedly.
• I want you to give me your hoodie when I`m cold.
• I want you to hold me and keep me warm.
• I want you to cuddle with me and watch movies together.
• I want you to kiss me in the rain.
• I want you to hold my hands and play with my fingers.
• I want you to play with my hair.
• I want you to take amazing photos with me.
• I want you to come to my house and meet my family.
• I want you to lay on my bed with me and just hold me.
• I want you to let me dress you up and make you look silly.
• I want you to watch sunrise/sunset with me.
• I want you to give me piggy back rides daily.
• I want you to kiss my nose.
• I want you to wipe my tears away.
• I want you to tell me that you miss me already even if we were together five minutes ago.
• I want you to drop everything and hug me tight.
• I want you to take me on a picnic.
• I want you to snuggle with me in the movie theaters.
• I want you to squeeze me as hard as you can when you hug me.
• I want you to smile every single time you see me.
• I want you to know how much I love you.
• I just want you.

THINGS A BOY WISHES HIS GIRLFRIEND KNEW

• I want you to let me play with my/your hair
• I want you to accept my compliments
• I want you to listen to me sometimes
• I want you to smile for me (guys love their girls smile)
• I want you to hold my hand unexpectedly 
• I want you to tell me silly jokes and pick up lines
• I want you to watch Pixar/Disney movies with me
• I want you to try to play video games with me
• I want you to tell me silly stories
• I want you to sing and dance randomly with me
• I want to take pictures and make couple videos with you
• I want you to not make fun of my little imperfections
• I want you to kiss me
• I want you to bite my lip occasionally
• I want you to tell me you love me
• I want you to tell me you missed me when we finally get together
• I want you to accept me for who I am
• I want you to love me unconditionally
• I just want to spend time with you
• I need you to know that I love you so much

P/s : hey I did blueberry muffin last week! :P 

will upload the pictures together with the recipe SOON! :D

-kausy

new hope.new aim.

Quick update.
Good news! I passed last semester with 'not bad' results! :) Phewwwwww..
Mom and Dad gave me more motivations to do better.
New Semester had start. Missing all my batch friends..Come back soon people.. ;)
I'm taking 3subjects this semester. Oncology,Toxicology and Team Building.
So far Onco and Toxico is treating me well..lol! Quite interesting I would say.
Saw her Yesterday, thought of at least saying 'Hi' but the way she walks pass me by wow it was full of #arrogance and #awkwardness. Well than I thought Sometimes old stories must be kept in a dusty box. Never to opened; again :) and there is where i kept her. *close topic*
Next week is  DEEPAVALI! Cant wait to go back home. Got tons of work to do.! Wait for me mom and dad :)

p/s : New semester had begin, I have new hopes and new aims that I want to achieve. God Bless me! :)

Missing you alot, hope to see you soon babe. :) *xoxo*

-2days left to go back hometown.

-Mid of week one y2s2.

-Kausy

Every scar I have, makes me who I am today.

yello ;P

Semester break is going on..
2 weeks of break just passed like that..Left another one more week.
emoing : Most of the time I fail in whatever things I do,hurts me allot, it leaves behind lots of scars but beyond all that I am trying my level best to stand up and fight the challenges that is ahead of me to achieve the goals that I have set.
Almost all of my friends , doing their Industrial Training except for few of us, including me. Felt so bad and left out actually but hey Everything Happens For A Reason aite. So I'm just going along the flow..

 " You will shine" 

 the sentence that my Father once told me, 

that'll always lift up my confidence level :) Love u dad.

Last semester was all great till at one point "someone broke the trust that I've on him/her". You know when Once the TRUST is betrayed, it's impossible to restore it completely. As one man said: " I have forgiven the thief who stole something from me, but I must admit that when he visits me, I always keep and eye on my silver spoons.." Remember: "Some things will never be the same again..."
and a small piece of advise for everyone including you! : Four things never come back, the Spoken word, the Wasted time, the Past life and the Neglected opportunity. So next time before you do something think TWICE and WISE!!

Few days ago had some misunderstanding with a close friend of mine. Just wanted to tell you, I hope you'll accept me the way I am as how I'm accepting you :) #ThatIsAllImAskingFromYou :)

And the other day I was chatting with Eleng and I told her something that even I did not realize that till yesterday and so far I've never told anyone about it. Part of the things I told her:  .."I'm a type of person that do not have any fancy dreams about my life, It's like I always think that If its meant to happen it'll happen and vice verse. I'm a person whom goes along the flow of my life. Like so many things had happened through this year and everything had happen for a reason and when you sit back and think about every single event you'll realize every single thing that had happened have its own connection with each other"..
So yeah why did I talk bout this in the first place? * scratching my head* LOL
naa just let it be there.. ;P

And Yeah I have something to tell to all the MEN out there :
If you're the type of guy who thinks she's "all yours", but you take her for granted and fail to show her  she's important, how long you think she's gonna be with you? I guarantee there is a man out there that is waiting for you to slip up...think bout it. ( Note: Being a great father is NOT the same and doesn't count as showing her she's important. It shows you are dedicated to your kids-which is GREAT! - but that isn't about her..


Before i leave there is ONE more thing I would wanna share : Dedicating to all the twitter maniacs including me :P

tweet : My apartment,It burns. I must leave the building! 

-Results will be out in a weeks time.   

I  did my best and the rest is in god's hand.

crossing my finger! 

-kausy-

Mood : Under Stress

 To many stuffs to read and digest. Left 3more papers. 1st paper was last week Immunology.Not bad I can say. Still left Metabolic Biochemistry, Anatomy and Physiology 2 and Organisation Human Resource..

Currently my mood !!!

-Will be back after 2weeks . Till than adios people.

-Thanx for reading my blog,teheheh :P

Mood: Under Stress 

What I want?

I want to :

-take you on a roadtrip or vice versa :P
-go to an art exhibit of an artist we've never heard of
-Eat something different
-Walk around the city
-Walk along the beach holding hands
-take a cooking class
-take a dance class : belly dancing maybe..
-eat ice creams in a rainy day
-play in the rain
-watch 3-4 movies back to back at theater
-take lots of picture with an old camera and decorate a wall with them
-Write you poetry on post-it notes and leave them in places. I know you'll see them..
-cuddle with you [ whenever you'd like]

-Spend the day in our pj's watching our favourite movies.
The list goes on and on..

- Finals in a weeks time-

-Kausy-

10 most stupid questions people usually ask

10 most stupid questions people usually ask in obvious situations and some equally stupid answers:-

1. At the movies: When you meet acquaintances/friends
Stupid Question:- Hey, what are you doing here?
Answer:- Well,it’s so hot, there were no cool cabs so I thought i’d watch some advertisements in the cool comfort of the theatre.

2. In the bus: A fat girl wearing pointed high-heeled shoes steps on your feet
Stupid Question:- Sorry, did that hurt?
Answer:- No, not at all, I’m on local anesthesia….. why don’t you try again or should i try this time.

3. At a funeral: One of the teary-eyed people ask
Stupid Question:- Why, why him, of all people.
Answer:- Why?Would it rather have been you?

4. At a restaurant: When you ask the waiter
Stupid Question:- Is the “blah blah blah” dish good
Answer:- No, its teribble and made of adulterated cement.We occasionaly also spit in it.

5. At a family get-together.When some distant aunt meets you after years
Stupid Question:- Munna,Chickoo, you’ve become so big.
Answer:- Well you haven’t particularly shrunk yourself.

6. When a friend announces her wedding, and you ask
Stupid Question:- Is the guy you’re marrying good?
Answer:- No,he’s a miserable wife-beating, insensitive lout…it’s just the money.

7. When you get woken up at midnight by a phone call
Stupid Question:- Sorry. were you sleeping.
Answer:- No. I was playing cricket for India at Sharjah and just when you called Salim Malik was betting with me that Pakistan would win. What do you think?

8. When you see a friend/colleague with evidently shorter hair
Stupid Question:- Hey have you had a haircut?
Answer:- No, its autumn and I’m shedding……

9. At the dentist when he’s sticking pointed objects in your mouth
Stupid Question:- Tell me if it hurts?
Answer:- And while I’m telling you , you tell me if I bite.

10. You are smoking a cigarette and a cute woman asks
Stupid Question:- Oh, so you smoke
Answer:- No, it’s a miracle… it was a chalk and now it’s in flames!!!

Scars

Grey's Anatomy : 

People have scars.
 In all sorts of unexpected places. 
Like secret road maps of their personal histories.
 Diagrams of all their old wounds. 
Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. 
But some of them don't. 
Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone,
 the pain still lingers....

-Something true right..

-kausy-

I'm Just A Simple Girl with a Fragile Heart

I was lonely yesterday, today and will be lonely tomorrow and always.

short update.. ;)


LAST WEEK
Renal Physiology :
It was one of the experiment that i enjoyed doing it. NOT because of the urine but it's the process of learning that I enjoyed. :) I learned how to measure the volume of urine, pH of the urine, specific gravity measurement of the urine and the chloride concentration of the urine. Something new. I am all ready to learn more new instruments and techniques. Its FUN!! trust me.
hmmmmmm than went to PENANG for my aunt's one year memorial prayers. Guess what?! It was a 20 storey flats, both lift breakdown and my uncle house is at 17th floor. My heart alm0st come out climbing the stairs. Climbing the stairs with my father,looking him panting like crazy made me to be worried but all he could do is making jokes all the way up! both of us laughed like crazy.
Oh yea I met two of the ungrateful grandchild of my grandmother! I din wish to meet them, hell what to do its all in my fate i guess...After the prayers and some adults talks we left Teluk Bahang and went to town! HELL YEAH It's CENDOL TIME! LOL. My god the best cendol i ever had is at [ Campbell Street  ] Krishna said he was high on Cendol! LMAO!! we tapao some cendol back to IPOH for my lovely cousin sister and my uncle :)
The next day, i landed at KAMPAR! There goes my sunday filled with reports to complete.

The best Cendol ever!! ;)

THIS WEEK:
This week nothing much. I did the most shortest experiment ever in university so far. The experiment was about Immunodiffusion about 10minutes only. Than I learned about Urinary System and currently im preparing myself for tomoro's ANP 2 Quiz.....They way you said No hurts me but I don't have any grudge on you cause you are part of my life.. I got to learn to let go i guess but i'll never forget it nor i'll ask you why. 


Something Random :  I would rather keep to myself than engaging in meaningless social interactions and I am selective about the people around me. That's me.

"Yes......

I'm a girl....

I push doors that clearly says PULL..

I laugh harder when I try to explain why I 'm laughing ..

I count on my fingers when doing maths...

I lie sometime to hide the pain ..

I cry a lot more than you think I do ;-(

I am not so strong as my smile seems to be..

I get attached to people who care even a little about me.

I fall in love too hard.. too fast...

I'm Just a Simple Girl with a Fragile Heart.

-finals around the corner,got to  work harder and smarter-

-kausy-

changed! me?

I ain't gonna crap a lot here.I just want you to live your life like how normal people does.You want to make changes your welcome to do so but be it something positive, something that really says that your actually doing the right thing.That's all. It's your life, and it's in your hand. People will be around you when your in your happy days but they wont be around you when you need a help.

- You think I've changed . Truth is you never really know the real me!

-Kausy-

p/s : pink template-something new to try~ Priya I'm getting into pink slowly.. LMAO

Wake up and Live your life!

Hey people[ wondering if someone is really actually reading all my post] , How are you all? First of all Im so sorry for not posting lately. I guess my last post was like 1 month ago. I was really really really okay really busy with my studies ;P .Actually even now I'm doing Metabolic Biochemistry report, but as usual I'm multitasking. LOL.
So, I was listening to Bob Marley songs when I came across a quote from him. Very meaningful and i decided to share it so here it is. :)

-sad to see some  people around me  

 don't really know the meaning of life-

-kausy-

Sometimes Naughty,Sometimes Nice..

"Sometimes Naughty,Sometimes Nice".[ the title itself is catchy! ;)] This is a Novel that I read couple of days ago. It was totaly a imaginary kinda of story...but i actually kinda like it! LOL!

The Synopsis :

 The Farrell daughters and their mother are back, and just as funny as they were in Kiss Me Once, Kiss Me Twice. Xandra, the youngest daughter and the one who has always tried hardest to please her mother, is the heroine. As owner and lead designer of Wild Women, Inc., a leading manufacturer of erotic toys and sexual enhancement products for women, she is determined to give women the Ultimate Orgasm. As the daughter of Jacqueline Farrell, leading sex expert, womanist and anti-marriage activist, she’s determined to adhere to her mother’s Holy Commitment Trilogy for a great relationship: great sex, shared interests, mutual respect — all without marriage entering the picture.


However, the day after Xandra’s live-in boyfriend of eight years packs up and moves out because “she doesn’t do it for him any more,” she finds her first gray hair down there and realizes that at twenty-nine, she’s out of time. She’s wasted eight years on Mark, has no social life and, in the six months since she’s quit smoking, she’s gained ten pounds. So Xandra goes to work to find the perfect man to father her baby.

Albert, her best friend and head of manufacturing for her company, decides he’d be just right for that job. And Xandra’s just hired the bad boy hunk from high school, responsible for the worst five minutes of sex in her life, to renovate her historic Houston home. Beau has never forgotten Xandra, but is determined to make his Hire a Hunk construction company respectable by winning the Texas Monthly renovation competition.

Xandra’s sister, Skye, who got married six months ago much to the horror of her mother, is determined to have not only a baby, but a boy baby because that’s what her husband Clint wants. And the other staff members at Wild Women, Inc., also have story lines, and they are all funnier than the one before.

Overall, Sometimes Naughty, Sometimes Nice is engaging, hilarious and sexy with a huge cast of quirky characters and a plot made more complex by the various couples’ stories and problems. Xandra’s schemes to get Beau into bed and his determination to stay away from her are over the top funny. However, there’s more to these characters than sexual games. Beau feels responsible for the men in his company and wants to make sure they keep their jobs, even if they aren’t as hunky as they used to be.

Xandra has never come to grips with her own lack of sexual self confidence and that she’s never going to be the thin femme fatale she’s always wanted to be. And in spite of the fact that she designs sex toys, she hasn’t had all that much experience with men. All the relationships highlight the fact that Jacqueline’s Holy Trinity may not work as well as she thinks. Mutual respect and shared interests don’t always lead to great sex, and great sex may not always include shared interests.

With all the characters and plot twists; there’s always something happening. This is a fast, funny and sexy read, marred only by the fact that all the couples are very neatly, if not expectedly, hooked up by the end. A sneak peak gives a glimpse of the third Farrell sister’s story. Eve has always annoyed their mother the most, but she is suddenly the good daughter, much to her horror, now that both her sibs are married.

 

In the end : a readable book for those whom fancy stuffs :P lol!



Some lines that made me say wow and like yeah,thats true!

"It's an unwritten rule of the universe.

Look your best and you never run into anyone.

 Look like hell and you'll see everyone you know."

"You were born. You grew up. You got married.

You squeezed out a couple of kids.

You played the doting grandmother once your couple

of kids squeezed out a couple of their own.

You died. End of story."

-Results out.Not satisfied but moved on with a heavy heart-

-Curently in week 1 Year 2 semester 1-

-kausy-

Expectations hurtz..

" Nobody knows that its empty
This smile that I wear
The real one had gone so long ago
Nobody knows Im crying
They wont even see my tears
When they think that Im laughing
I still wish there will be some miracles
Nobody knows how painful it is
They think Im strong.
They said that this wont kill me
But I wonder if they were wrong
Nobody knows how much Im praying
They think I feel fine
But I feel like Im bound with chains
Trapped in the mystery of my own life..."
                                               -Kausy-
..............................................................................................
Sem break is going on.
Holidays-coming to an end now
few more days left..
Most Important thing is RESULTS. It seems its either coming out on thursday or friday. Sigh.
There goes my holidays mood down to the drain..


About my results..
I seriously have no idea how its going to look like..
Obviously I dont wanna fail again..
I really did my very best. I know how much efforts I've put in. I hope will get a good results..
I have gone through too many failures in my life allready and I dont wish to add more..
I...hmmmm I think I cant take it this time if it happenz again.
Might runaway from everything..but where? Sigh...


Im being so restless and no one is noticing it..
All they could do is to talk about themselve..
I have feelings too..
Im emoing cant you all see it..Yeah yeah..no point telling them this..
I wont be getting any benefits from there..


Hmmm, It's really going to be totaly different if get a fucked up results..
I dont know what to say, but i'll really get vvvveeerrryyy upset.depressed.
and will NEVA BE THE SAME AGAIN.
hmmmm I might sound like a DRAMA QUEEN but i really cant afford to meet failure again..
I really cant..hmmmm

-praying hard,crossin my fingers

I know you wont let me down god-

-kausy-

Getting the pressure now~

Hell yeah its EXAM SEASON again!!!!! woohooooo..

should I be happy for it or no? Sometimes i just don't understand why must we have exams? Why can't the government abolish this system? why?! why!! What are we proving by doing the exam?? To show how smart one is or to show how stupid one is? If its to show who's the most smartest than I don't want to be the moron head!! rather do the exam! hahaha,chill no hard feelings.My personal opinion is that Every single Human Being is given the same brain just that we are not using it properly as how the smart ass ppl does!! That's how i console myself every time I'm down..jeez..

I'm just under stress now. Don't want to repeat the same mistakes that i did last 2semester ago! *sigh*

Damn this is how i feel now. 3 major paper and 2 elective papers! Major paper : Cell biology, Anatomy & Phsiology and Structural Biochemistry and than Elective paper:  Political science with English For Science.wow! So much to study and I have so less time left.U know what? here in my University, long semester consist of 14weeks and now i meant this current week is week 14! and than next week is the study week [ usually we are given 1 week for it] but guess what my finals are starting on the study week itself!! WTF right..why cant they give us a proper study week without taking away the time given for us to prepare for the finals!! DAMN!!! hmmmm i guess i need some time management course!!!! arrgghhhh

hahahahahhaha!! and i hope i dont get questions like this!! That will really make me go CRAZY!!  and i just hope i will pass all my subjects with good results! not that i have a very high hopes! just that im doing as what My DAD always says "aim for the moon,if u fail to do so dont worry cause u'll fall among the stars".

[just like this : aim for A+ and u will get either A or B] .

Thanx dad for the confidence and the faith u have in me! I'll prove you right dad!

Lastly i would like to wish to all my friends GOOD LUCK in ur coming finals!! Lets do our best! 

-building up my confidence level-

-got to start to prepare for finals-

-kausy-

Don't be afraid to be yourself:

Repost and BOLD what applies you

• I’m loud.
• I’m sarcastic.
• I cry easily.
• I have a bad temper.
• I’m easy to get along with.
• I have more enemies than friends.
• I’ve smoked.
• I drink coffee.
• I clean my room daily.  

My appearance:

• I wear makeup.
• I wear a piece of jewellery at all times.
• I wear contacts.
• I wear glasses.
• I have braces.
• I change my hair color often.
• I have a piercing.
• I have small feet.

Relationships:

• I’m in a relationship now. 
• I’m single
• I’m crushin’.
• I’ve missed an ex before.
• I’m always scared of being hurt.
• I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
• I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
• I’ve been in love more than two times.
• I believe in love at first sight.
• I’m too awesome for everyone.

Friendships:

• I have a best friend.
• I have at least ten REAL friends.
• I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
• I’ve beaten up a friend.
• I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
• I can trust at least five people with my life. 

Experiences:

• I’ve been on a plane.
• I’ve taken a taxi.
• I’ve taken a city bus.
• I’ve taken a school bus.
• I’ve made a speech.
• I’ve been in some sort of club.
• I’ve won an award.
• I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.

Music:

• I listen to R&B.
• I listen to pop. I listen to techno.
• I listen to rock.
• I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
• I download music.
• I buy CD’s.

Television:

• I spend at least six hours a day watching television. 
• I’ve seen and liked the O.C.
• I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.
• I’ve seen and liked America’s Next Top Model.

Family Life:

• I get along with both of my parents.
• My biological parents are still together.
• I have at least one brother.
• I have at least one sister.
• I’ve been kicked out of the house.
• I’ve ran away from my home.
• I’ve sworn at my parents.
• I’ve made my parents cry.
• I’ve lied to my parents.
• I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.  
• I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
• I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.

Hair:

• I’ve had streaks.
• I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
• I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
• I’ve been blonde.
• I’ve had black.
• I’ve been red.
• I’ve been light brown.
• I use conditioner.
• I’ve curled my hair.
• I’ve straightened my hair

- i am who i am.no one can change that.!

-hell week is on its way ( week 12)-

-kausy-

Its only a feeling..

"There are certain people who aren't meant to fit in your life no matter how much you want them to"

-mid of preparing  presentation slides-

-sleepless night- 

Stay awhile more~

Lyric "Amanda Seyfried - Little House"
Dear John Original Motion Picture Soundtrack
TO LISTEN PLEASE CLICK THE LINK BELOW...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3nxj_GEbxs


I love this place
But it's haunted without you
My tired heart is beating so slow
Our hearts sing this
That we want it we want it
Our hearts sing 'cause
We do not know we do not know

Chorus..
To light the night
To help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said I always know)

You can catch me
Don't you run
Don't you run
If you live another day
In this happy little house
The fire's here to stay

Chorus
To light the night
To help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said I always know)


Please don't make a fuss
It won't go away
The wonder of it all
The wonder that I make
I am here to stay
I am here to stay
To stay


p/s : This movie in my opinion, i love the story line and the sound tracks all are awesome! this is one of the song.loving it and m emoing now...

-missing you.and u know who u are.-

-kausy-

DAY 11- Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10songs that pops out

Since i dont have a ipod i'll just play songs in my WMP and i'll write it down :)

1 . Last Resort-Papa Roach ( one of my fav song)!!
2. In the shadows-Rasmus
3. Superhuman-Chris brown ft.Keri hilson
4. Only love- Trademark
5. No one-Alicia keys
6.Right here waiting-Richard marx
7.No air-Jordin sparks ( one of my fav american idol)
8. Down-Jay sean ( fav singer ever)!!
9.You're not alone- MJ
10. It's not my time-3 doors down

Talking bout songs..listening to songs is my favourite of all times and i always go for the lyrics which is very meaningful and also the musics :)

im sorry to say but topic 8 and 10 is too sensitive..hahahah ! so not talking bout it.. but maybe one day i'll talk bout it :) and topic 10 is exactly the same as the topic Day 2 le....=.="



-Sometimes, i wish you'd pay attention to my favourite songs because the lyrics sing words I'm too scared to say.-

-Sometimes you need a little hope,

and sometimes u need a friend-

Currently my addiction..

Ice white coffee! yeah seriously its gng to be 3am now and im still wide awake..! screw u white coffee!! arrghhhh.... LOL. but stil i love coffee's :)

Stuck in the middle-by JAY SEAN also currently my addiction. dont know y the songs seems to be on my head all the day. Feels like sometime this song is meant for me..ohh oo i've no freggin idea why.. :O

Lab reports.I wont complaint.because last semester i did say that i miss writting reports.like tomorow is the submission day and today i'll be doing it..i love the pressure! haha.crazy i know. cz i am doing that right now. Anatomy lab report. need to hand in moro..no no today i mean at 1pm. and im still doing it while fb'ing, listening to Jay Sean songs and now while blogging. Multi-tasking this is.! hahaha :)

I have no idea whats going on between u n i. but im very scared. i dont want it to end. i dont know y and how but i dont want it to happen.i am busy.ur busy.both of us are busy. yeah i know that.hmmm sometimes u got to know what i want.i cant always tell u to do this and that. u should know bout me well for now.hope u do.lets just drop tis matter.its not gng anywer.we are just hurting each other.hmmmmm...SORRY!

-continue dng lab report :)-

-hoping for a better day-

Day07-Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality

Im proud to say that my zodiac is CANCER!! ;) lol..

orait let me tell about the whole thing about cancer first and than i'll discuss wheter it fits my personality or no :)

To those whom born between 22june-22july :)

Cancerian..
-Emotional and loving
-Intuitive and imaginative
-Shrewd/ Sharp and cautious
-Protective and sympathetic
-Changeable and moody
-Overemotional and touchy
-Clinging and unable to let go

Your Biggest Strength: Your ability to nurture others

Your Potential Weakness: Fear of the past repeating in the future

For more information about 2011 cancer horoscope u may refer to this link :)

http://www.indastro.com/horoscope/cancer-horoscope-astrology.html
 
My opinion wheter it fits my personality :
 
Firstly i agree with all the characteristic because i have all that in me :P
but then im a person that goes along the flow-my life i mean..
accept the fact eventhough its a heartbreaking event or a happy event..
If u ask me wheter i believe horoscope or no? I'll say i do believe..
Its all in one's hand wheter they wana believe it or no..
 
Well everything happens for a reason aite..
 
So yea :)
 

-Mid sem break started-

-Happy Chinese New Year Guys-

Day06 : Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

hahaha..this is someting interesting..30 interesting facts about myself ha.. Let me to start to crap :) :P

1. I love Jay Sean songs! Im really a crazy crazy crazy fan of him!!

2. I LOVE to listen to songs! because sometimes songs that i listen brings back some of my old memories. Music helps me to express my moods and myself.

3. I love when someone pamper me with all the love.. :P

4. I dont like SMOKERS!!! but i cant do anything because some of my close friends smokes..! cant hate dem aite.. sigh... PLEASE LA people stop smoking.not gud for health..bla bla bla..I dont wana b the freggin second hand smoker! damn u.. * no offence pls* :P

5. wow..im so good at using the  F*** word!! hahaha  ;)

6. Sadly im not a dancer,neither a singer :( i wish that i could do any of these..

7. Im GOOD at crapping!!

8. I love my parents so much..so much that i used to fight with my mom almost like everytime i'm at hometown. But seriously i love my parents so much that i cant live without them.My family is everything to me.

9. I love chocolates :)

10. I fancy TALL guys!! serious shit..! i've no freggin idea why..but i am really into tall guys..hahahaha

11. LOVE to eat! haha..who dosent right.. ; )

12. My First Crush was a stranger. I really dont know who it was..

13. My first love was 4 years older than me. It did not last but we are close friends now :)

14. My dream was to do medicine,but my dream just crash away just like that .. :(

15. There's no life for me without my friends..!! I love you all so much!!

16. My Best friend is a chinese gurl! ; ) We are together i means besties for more than 14years :) Glad to have her in my life.

17. I love the RAIN.

18. Sometime i need time for myself. I'll lock myself in the room.Blast my speakers.Sing my heart out. ;)

19. I dont give a damn to those whom dont respect me!

20. Im a very egostic person! Trust me i am..hahaha

21. I forgive people easily but its very hard for me to forget it..

22. My dad is my idol :)

23. I wanna get married one day and have kids and raise them just the way as how my parents raise me  with some correction here n der :P haha

24. I have the world best sister and brother :) and i love them sooo much!!!!

25. I'm a person whom speak the truth at the right time!

26. I've Tiru'in / copied in exams :P LOL

27. I Love HUGSS!!!

28. SEAN my Teddy bear is the only place for me to cry when im down..

29. I love to read Quotes,short stories...etc etc..

30. I LOVE MYSELF!!!

Day05- A time you thought about ending your own life..

hmmmmm..

i had the contemplation bout it once and very sure everyone would have at least once thought bout it..
Its because of someting that i told myself to forget bout but act i could not..
Its very easy for everyone to advise people to forget the past and move one...its not easy..trust me! its not!
Some Memories Neva Fade...

well coming to the topic..i always tell myself that ending your own life is actually the most stupidst thing eva one can do.. i mean there are so many things one can do other than ending their life right..basicly they never think about their family..how would they accept the loss and stuffs...
but in the end i understand why people do take this kind of decision..

I've gone tru it and this what made me to almost end my life..
to much depression that i cant even handle.someone that broke my heart after all the promises he made. and that particular time i have no one to speak too.couldnt concentrate on my studies.my grades were fallin down the drain.i was too afraid to confess to my parents about what im going tru.i was scared that they cant accept it. Too many problems at home and with friends. at one point i thought to myself that there is no use of me living in these world because no one ever understand what im going trough. that one day i texted that someone afta so long telling him that i really coudlnt move on in my life and that i need him back.. and that im afraid that i'll do someting stupid like ending my own life...and what he sed was he asked me to move on and that there will b some other guy for me..well thats not the answer that i was expecting and that answer from him really broke my heart into pieces and made me to  realize that he had moved on and was happy with some other woman.

And  i told myself that i have all the rights to be happy too..
but i always wish that you'll give me one more chance..hmmmmm

Well whateva it is we got to move on aite..thats what i did too with a heavy heart..
This how i almost end my precious life...

- week 2 is approaching-

-lab praticals gonna start-

Day04-Your views on Religon

my view on religon..
well act tis is a SENSITIVE issue.. LOL..

lets say if i talk bout it im afraid i'll hurt people's feelings..so yea i choose not to talk about it..
sorry guys...

Anyways Chinese New Year is around the corner..
i would love to grab this opp to Wish all my Chinese Friends a very PROSPEROUS CHINESE NEW YEAR ;)

GONG XI FATT CHOI.. :)  hope i get the spelling rite...