To those who had broken their heart, I know how you feel.
Empty, betrayed and no happiness and whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry either because it will make you feel even worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end and no matter what this person has done you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. and everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do and the people who hurt you the most are the people you love the most. And then after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again but you know inside that you're going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary years. You thought you got over him, but really you just stopped showing it. It leaves a deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel and how deep you get hurt, no matter who they are because it hasn't happened to them and even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain until you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you break down, right there because you ,you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing and you're to the point where you don't care who see's because you've spent many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. and in the midst of all these tears, you know its not helping any and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself together and keep going. And this is the hardest part of all, moving on.. I am moving on, it takes time but definitely I am moving on
p/s : You know am acting like am fine but it kills me so much. You throw away my love for her. So here I realize that there's no point waiting for you nor loving you anymore. I threw away all the gifts, cards, dresses you got me, the notes that we wrote to each other , I threw them away. I deleted our album, those pictures we took together, I deleted it. I don't need those memories that is not going to give me anything else other than a heart break. You deserve to be happy and I hope your choice this time is the one for you. I wish and I am really wishing this that I never wanna see you again! EVER!!!
-Instead of making me happy,
it's just messing up my life.
So fuck love I don't need it in my life-
-Kausy-
