" Nobody knows that its empty
This smile that I wear
The real one had gone so long ago
Nobody knows Im crying
They wont even see my tears
When they think that Im laughing
I still wish there will be some miracles
Nobody knows how painful it is
They think Im strong.
They said that this wont kill me
But I wonder if they were wrong
Nobody knows how much Im praying
They think I feel fine
But I feel like Im bound with chains
Trapped in the mystery of my own life..."
-Kausy-
Sem break is going on.
Holidays-coming to an end now
few more days left..
Most Important thing is RESULTS. It seems its either coming out on thursday or friday. Sigh.
There goes my holidays mood down to the drain..
About my results..
I seriously have no idea how its going to look like..
Obviously I dont wanna fail again..
I really did my very best. I know how much efforts I've put in. I hope will get a good results..
I have gone through too many failures in my life allready and I dont wish to add more..
I...hmmmm I think I cant take it this time if it happenz again.
Might runaway from everything..but where? Sigh...
Im being so restless and no one is noticing it..
All they could do is to talk about themselve..
I have feelings too..
Im emoing cant you all see it..Yeah yeah..no point telling them this..
I wont be getting any benefits from there..
Hmmm, It's really going to be totaly different if get a fucked up results..
I dont know what to say, but i'll really get vvvveeerrryyy upset.depressed.
and will NEVA BE THE SAME AGAIN.
hmmmm I might sound like a DRAMA QUEEN but i really cant afford to meet failure again..
I really cant..hmmmm
-praying hard,crossin my fingers
I know you wont let me down god-
-kausy-
