" Nobody knows that its empty
This smile that I wear
The real one had gone so long ago
Nobody knows Im crying
They wont even see my tears
When they think that Im laughing
I still wish there will be some miracles
Nobody knows how painful it is
They think Im strong.
They said that this wont kill me
But I wonder if they were wrong
Nobody knows how much Im praying
They think I feel fine
But I feel like Im bound with chains
Trapped in the mystery of my own life..."
-Kausy-
Sem break is going on.
Holidays-coming to an end now
few more days left..
Most Important thing is RESULTS. It seems its either coming out on thursday or friday. Sigh.
There goes my holidays mood down to the drain..
About my results..
I seriously have no idea how its going to look like..
Obviously I dont wanna fail again..
I really did my very best. I know how much efforts I've put in. I hope will get a good results..
I have gone through too many failures in my life allready and I dont wish to add more..
I...hmmmm I think I cant take it this time if it happenz again.
Might runaway from everything..but where? Sigh...
Im being so restless and no one is noticing it..
All they could do is to talk about themselve..
I have feelings too..
Im emoing cant you all see it..Yeah yeah..no point telling them this..
I wont be getting any benefits from there..
Hmmm, It's really going to be totaly different if get a fucked up results..
I dont know what to say, but i'll really get vvvveeerrryyy upset.depressed.
and will NEVA BE THE SAME AGAIN.
hmmmm I might sound like a DRAMA QUEEN but i really cant afford to meet failure again..
I really cant..hmmmm
-praying hard,crossin my fingers
I know you wont let me down god-
-kausy-
You will not fail if you put effort in it, Kausy
ReplyDeletecoz God knows the best and he wil giv what you DESERVE !
so, cheer up and enjoy your holidays k.
adios
Ponnurajah
I really hope i wont.
ReplyDeleteThnx for the comforting words ponnurajah :)
-kausy-
kausy oh kausy,
ReplyDeletei know watever im going to say or advise u will never b de same anymore but listen here for de last time.wateva happened its the past.everyone has to go thru wit their own failure.even me.u sed ur being so restless and no one is noticing it.all they could do is to talk about themselve.u have feelings too.ur emoing cant we all see it.de way u describe tis made me felt like im not being a gd fren to u.u might say no1 is noticing u.believe me.i und hw u felt n i noe de way ur expressing ur feelings.WE DO CARE FOR YOU! i duno hw else im going to convince u to stop urself frm emoing all de time.ppl do emo but once u drag it too long ur gonna loose urself.y not giv urself a chance to prove urself n others tat u CAN?! i know u CAN da! we must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.rmb no matter wat happens im thr 4 u! love. -eleng-
My dear eleng :) I know you care bout me alot..I know that. I was talking about some ppl else.. Chill okay. Tq for ur advice and concern da :) I love you so much....
ReplyDelete-kausy