hey people :)) am back after three months..!!
so a quick update about what I did for the past 3 months..I took 5 subjects this semester that is virology ( studies about viruses and bacterias) , Clinical Biochemistry ( so far the best and my most favourite subject in my degree life. basically we study about the overall about humans diseases and the biochemical test and stuffss ), Microbiology ( studies about microbes of cause, a little bit about viruses and bacteria's, second most favourite subject especially during the practical time, you are given the chance to play with the microorganisms you know ), Neurobiology ( studies about human's brain and their associated diseases and some biochem related stuffs) and finally Interpersonal Communication ( no comment ) .So semester was going on all well till last month. Finals just ended two days ago..Did my best and leave the rest to god's hand. I just hope i'll get through this semester. I'll be doing my internship in Specialist Centre, Ipoh on the 1st of october for 3 months. Hope that i'll learn a lot during this internship :)
So yeah about the 'bad' part is that hmmmmm I've lost that person that I shouldn't have let go in the first place, but things happens don't they. Misunderstandings, arguments that has no solution at all and main culprit is the egoness. Seriously guys and their egoness really drives me crazy. Do they have PMS like us too?? well anyways a small note for that person, if you read this post I just want you to know this " What makes you think that you know whats best for me? Walking away from " this " is really not the best thing to do!! Fighting for this is!! " !! And you keep blaming yourself for all the things that happened, okay not all but yes you did! and FYI those blaming part will never help you to solve any problems!! Unfortunately, you left. And if you think that I was the one whom left you , I left because you didn't ask me to stay , but I can't really tell if it's killing me or making me stronger. I was having finals and all you did is made me to take such a decision and in the end making up a situation where I am the one to be blamed. I did not want this, you asked for it and remember I told you, if you want it you have to face the consequences. Don't blame me if there's no more spark, you know what I meant. BUT I really do hope that one day you will realize what you mean to me, because I honestly don't think you have the slightest clue and by that time I would have been gone.....
I actually started to write this post on the 21st September 2012 around 8pm when I received a call, a call that made me to burst into tears, a call that made me to feel like the world is not fair at all.. a call that kills me from the inside...and I stop writing the post and today 26th September 2012 I continue writing and this is what happened..
Few days back, 21st September 2012, I lost someone dear to me, someone who were there for me all the time, someone whom doesn't fail to give me hope and strength, someone whom always believed that I can do and achieve my dreams.. Priya. All I ever wished you were still here and that is all I want, but I guess god loves you more, loves you more than anyone else. Rest in peace priya. If I want I can write a lot of things about you, but I don't want to do that. Let those memories being with you, be with me... I love you so much. You thought me the pain of losing a friend in my life and I don't wana feel and go through the pain again.. :'( Priya, you know your last post in your blog you mentioned about your anniversary with Austin on 14th July and you mentioned 23rd September indeed another day to be remembered? I never thought it would be the day you'll leave all of us dey..I miss you so much and I know you are happy there with all the angels up there in the heaven. One day we shall meet bitchu and I miss you calling me with that name..
P/s: I learnt a lesson, I am in the point of my life whereby I am going to see many of my loved one leaving me, many more heartbreaks to see and feel . Right now all I wish is to be a kid again because skinned knees are a lot easier to fix than a broken heart :|
- Kausy-
- heartbreak is not something easy to handle-
- I miss her alot-
